the issue with small steps.

I think I understand why New Year's resolutions don't work out. People generally want to tackle each goal and become this flawless person Day 1 but are too afraid to fail. I am that person. I all of the sudden want to change all of these different things about myself immediately, but the second it doesn't work out I save it for a different day. Generally this want to change comes when everyone else has this want to change does and the fact that I'm doing it in July is a little weird to me. Then again, I'm over the I'll start Monday thing and ready to tackle myself today.

I've started my goal list. I've started my life list. Both things seem to be harder than I thought they'd be. I have my year goals, and my July goals that will help me get closer to my year goals. I think my little system is going to work. Why?

Because I won't take no for an answer.

I'm pretty sure that's step one. I really hope with all my heart that you don't have to figure out what you want to change or improve this way. It's really frustrating and there's a lot of heartbreak. I can't count how many fights J and I have gotten in to because of little habits I wish I changed "yesterday" or all the times I've said that I'm going to work on that and fix it. It surprisingly really hurts to know you've failed at...well most things. I have a horrible habit of never finishing things I've started and each time I've been reminded of that has pushed me to this point.

So maybe that's what people like me need. Hopefully you can skip those steps. They suck.

With my head high and ready for some days where I just need to pick myself back up, I have my goals and ideas to a "better me". I know that I will fail at times but rather than totally giving up, I will live in the minute and keep on going. I want to see improvement immediately and just *poof* problem solved, but I know it doesn't work that way. Since I've already begun my health goal, I've experienced this first hand and can now, hopefully, apply it to the other aspects of my life.

I know I can.